Friday, 15 January 2016

My precious bestfriends ('; ♥ UPDATED.

Bellep | 罗莎贝拉 

Snapchat - Rozabelle

She was born on 18th August 1998 and her parents named her Rozabelle Pediman.We were schoolmate for 14 years. We didn't really talk to each other until we were primary 6. Let's just say I was a really talkative person and really mean to other people. I didn't talk to her because she was not that, hm I don't know, she was not that friendly to other people unless people came and talk to her. She was a weirdo, like really. She wore a really long socks like she was in a ballet class with two ponytails. The funniest thing that I still remember was when my friends and I saw her blue underwear while she was wearing sport wear and she cried. Hah! I didn't know she was exist till then. My bad. Anyway, we were in the same class like almost every year. Oh, except when we were in Form 2. My result was bad when I was in Form 1 so I had to move to a lower class. Even though we were in different class, we still keep in touch and shared everything. And, when we were in Form 3, she had to move to a lower class too which was the class that I was in. AND SO ON. She's kinda annoying and sometimes it's pissing me off but that's what best friend for right? So, it is already 2016, and day by day she is getting old but it doesn't matter if she's getting old because she always forget like almost everything. Such a noob. I'm really thankful that she is my best friend, my partner-in-crime and etc. You know, I don't really want to talk much about her because it is wasting my time but whatever, once in a blue moon. Boom. No one wants to start a fight with her and I don't know why, maybe it is because of her fuck face. Too pretty to handle. Well, there were so many memories that we shared, so that is one of the prove. 

Ying | 黄莹莹 


 The name of this person is Sharon Bong. She was born on this world on 11th January 1998. She's very caring and love everyone around her. We have been best friend since we were small. This girl, she is really good at pretending but I know everything because she is one of my best friend so I'm not gonna fall into it. Two-faced but she's really a funny person. She always saying that she was hungry and when we went to eat, she only ate like really small amount. I was like 'WTF'. She is really a skinny person. Good sense of humor ( sometimes ).  We made this one group chat named ' Girl's Secret ' and there are only 4 members inside it. She always screenshot someone and sent it to our group chat. One of her hobby. And, she is a really good stalker. She even knew those people grandpa grandma great grandma or whatever it is. And of course, she is annoying too. Like REAAAAAAAAALLY annoying but I keep myself calm. We have the same skin colour, I think. Not that white, not that chocolate. 50/50, hehe. If she didn't satisfy with someone or any situation, she never keep quiet. All that she do was telling people and post about it. She knows if her friend is in hurt. She is the shortest one among 4 of us. We always argue about silly things and that is what I like about her.



The name is Nur Shila Abd Rahman. She was born on 12th October 1998. The first time I met her was when she moved to our school like 4 years ago. We were not that close until she moved to our class while we were in Form 4. Day by day, we getting close to each other and we shared a lot of things. And one day, her sister came to our class and told her that they have to go home asap. When I looked at her, she had this 'surprised' look on her face but I had a bad feeling. So when I was home, I saw her post on facebook and it says '29/9/2014' with sad faces. And from there, I knew something bad happened so I asked her and she said that her dad passed away because of car accident that morning that was why she had to go home. I was speechless, I didn't even know what to say to her. So, I said condolences and I told her to stay strong. The next day, she didn't come to school. And everyone was like ' poor Shila , that is so sad ' etc . Maybe after a week, she came to school. She was really different. She didn't really talk much. We knew that it was hard for her to let it go but we tried really hard to make her smile. She did smile for awhile but it was a fake smile. And of course, I know it would be really hard to smile and laugh. I don't even know what am I gonna do if one of my family member pass away. It is like half of us died. But then, after for so long. She was good. She smiled and laughed a lot. Even though she was sad, she didn't really show it to us. She still trying to be tough in front of us and it was okay. Anyway, she is a very kind person. Her exam results were always flying colours. A friendly person and yes, she is pretty too. Although sometimes she annoys me but I always do miss her. We shared a lot of memories too even though it was only for 2 years. We don't really know where she is right now. MIA. Didn't even reply our chat but, yes we miss her all the time.

{ So these are my best friends that will always be there for me . I can always count on them even though sometimes we argue.  We laugh together and we had so much fun . We've been so strong last year . The precious tears we drop i won't forget . no matter what happen we're still having each other . ♥ }


Hello people! 

I just finished high school! So, I wanted to create a new blog like 2 days ago but, BUT I found my old blog which is I created it when I was still in primary 6. It has been awhile, isn't? The last post that I posted was on 9th October 2011 about my so-called best friend. Hah, I'm not gonna talk about her because she's a pig. I'm a mean person, but who cares. Anyway, it's already TWO O' ONE SIX. I don't even remember why I stopped blogging but the good news is I'm gonna start post everything starting today. I'm kinda excited and feels embarrassing at the same time. I read all the posts that I posted like 5 years ago and it is so E M B A R R A S S I N G. Oh well, what can I do? Bahahaha.

I had a boyfriend when I was in Form 1. I met him through an online game named ' Mo Siang '. After for so long playing that game, my brother asked me to join him to play a new mmo game named ' Dragon Nest ' . So, he also joined and that was where sad things happened . He met a girl, and day by day they became really closed. They skype like almost everyday but he never tell me. And every night while we were on the phone, he forced me to go to bed, again and again and said that he was really sleepy. I was like 'Okay, its fine. I'm gonna off to bed too' Bla bla bla. And the next day, I was talking to my brother and he told me that my boyfriend were playing games with him until morning. He also told me that there was a girl with him. Curiosity kills me so I went to check his facebook and I saw their chat. Hah, I know. I shouldn't do that but what to do what to do. So, I tweeted something on twitter and my boyfriend saw it so he got mad and changed his facebook password. SO WHAT. I was mad so I didn't play Dragon Nest for like 5,6 months. I found a new online game which is I'm still playing it right now. I liked the game so I was playing it by myself because my boyfriend didn't want to play it with me and said that he was busy with his guild and stuff on DN. After that, I created a new character on DN and leveled it until max level just to check on him. Yup, I was a stupid one. :P
And every time I went to check him, he was always with that girl. It hurts really bad. Hehe.
I really wanted an attention from him so I told him that I created a new character and yadayada.
We had a big argue for a month. He told me to give him a second chances. I gave him. It happened a lot of times and I still gave him chances. IT HURTS AND I CRIED LIKE ALMOST EVERYDAY. Yep, stew-pids. So, I don't really remember when was it but I was like ' fuck it ' and bla bla bla . He told the girl that I was her girlfriend. She got mad and went comment on my facebook post and said ' I'm sorry, but *** is my boyfriend. :) ' WITH A SMILEY FACE... I got mad at my boyfriend. And, he screenshot some of their chat and that girl said she knew my twitter, she knew my facebook and my instagram. She also said that shes gonna tell me that she showed her ( . Y . ) to my boyfriend . ANDDDDDDD WHATEVER I STOPPED TALKING TO MY BOYFRIEND BECAUSE I KNEW THAT EVERYTHING THAT CAME OUT FROM HIS MOUTH WERE LIES. AND, the last thing that he said to me was ' Thank you for everything ' . AND past is just a past. Heh.

My PMR result was okay. Didn't get really much A's but I was in Account class, with my best friends duh. It was fun fun. Waiting for my SPM result on March. Scary.

Sunday, 9 October 2011


We said it was forever - said we'd never part,
I knew it was a line, but I still gave you my heart.
Said you would stay, promised you could,
You chose to walk away, I knew you would.
You’re not there anymore, my dearest friends,
I hate to say this, but it is our end.
By day you’re one person, by night another,
Neither of them have anything to do with each other.
I sit here and cry for you - not for me,
What you've become, I wish you could see.
In your life you make friends that you're sure are true,
Nothing else matters, except what's between them and you.
You don't know if anyone has ever before felt this way,
For them you took breaths, you wanted to be alive everyday.
It hurts to loose a friend, it gives you the saddest frown,
And when a second one bails, it's like getting kicked while
you're down.
And it hurts to be accused of something you didn't do,
You guys should know better than anyone, that I would never even think to.
You planted a knife in my back,
You were my life, but now, my memories of you are completely black.
I am afraid to love another, but I know I shouldn't be,
Because the people in my life, are perfect for me.
There is this game I play,
Where I close my eyes and fade away.
I can't believe it's true,
but in this place, I can't even remember that I loved you.
You can't fix something that's already done.

Farewell Mandha. </3